The Journey Begins,

Every journey has a begining and mine is no different. i had been browsing some internet dating sites and had even been on a few dates with some nice men, but no one that i wanted to go on a second date with, let alone form a lasting relationship.
So, one day i was again browsing some sites and i ended up on a site i had never seen before. i looked around the site a little and to tell the truth at first i was appalled. It was an alternate lifestyle site. But, the more i looked and read, the more intrigued i became. i decided to post a profile on this site, all the time telling myself i would never come back....but of course i did.
i went back to this site several times a week. i read more and even looked up some stuff on the internet. i have to say, some of the things i read frightened me, but some of the things i read made sense. It spoke to me in a way that none of the other sites did.
So, i stopped being a passive participant. i started going in the chat rooms, and browsing profiles. i even expressed interest, what the site referred to as winking, in some of the men whose profiles interested me. Some of these men responded.  Some winked even winked back.We would e-mail and chat on IM. i learned more about "The Lifestyle". Some of these men i found were too intense for me, some were into things that i had no desire to even try, and some of course were fakes or players. Others i liked. Some of these men lived far away, and others were local. i even went out with one, but we just didn't click.
Then it happened. i found the profile of a man that i really liked. He lived quite a distance from me, but i had put in my profile that i was willing to relocate for the right person. i winked at Him. He responded and we started e-mailing one another. We had a lot of differences. The first one was rather obvious, i am Baptist and He is Pagan. He asked me if this would be a deal breaker for me. i told Him "No, as long as you don't try to change my religion." He promised that would never happen.
With that out of the way, we continued to talk, e-mails, instant messages, even an occassional phone call. We did this for 2-3 months. He had years of experience and i had none. He set about teaching me things i needed to know. He asked about my "limits" but i told him i didn't know enough yet to have limits. i was hooked. Every time i saw His name in my inbox i would get a little flutter of excitement in my stomach, if i knew He was going to call, i would just sit waiting for the phone to ring.
After about 3 months we decided we wanted to meet. He arranged for us to meet in a town that was about three hours away from both of us. He even arranged for a hotel room. It was really happening.
The day we were going to meet came. i got ready, made sure my mom who i was living with at the time had all the information about where i was going and who i would be with. i didn't tell her that the person i was meeting was into an alternative lifestyle, that was something i did not want her to know.
As i walked out to my car i wondered what i was getting myself into, i even toyed with the idea of backing out. But, then i reminded myself that this was what i wanted. i took a deep breath and got into my car.....
TO BE CONTINUED

Just Getting Started

This is my first post here on my new blog. When i thought about starting a blog, i wondered, "Do i have anything to say that would be of interest to others?" The answer was and still is, "i don't know." But, i have decided not to let that stop me.
 In this blog i will share my journey into submission. i will discuss how it all started, where i am now, and where i go in the future. Some of my stories may bother some people. There are people who will say i am immoral, wrong, or worse. To those people i say thank you for your opinion, but i am happy and secure in who i am.
It is my sincere hope that at some time this blog may help someone. Someone who may see in themselves what i came to see in myself.  i hope this blog can be a basis for meaningful discussion, and if anyone ever has questions about submission, or D/s relationships, while i certainly don't consider my self an expert, far from it, i will do my best to answer, or if i don't know find an answer. i will also give you the benefit of my experience so maybe others can avoid some of the mistakes i made along the way.
i plan to be brutally honest in this blog, about myself, about others, and about my feelings. i do my best not to be judgemental, as i feel everyone has the right to live their lives in a way that is right for them. No one can make the decision on how someone else lives their life, that is something everyone has to figure out on their own.
So, this is my blog. i hope you enjoy it.